Truth be told...

I cannot breathe! Darn my small nose and when it gets stuffy...it sucks big time! Almost 2am and I am now wide awake, bladder is empty and nose is still stuffy.

I have been thinking a lot lately, way too much in fact. Thinking about situations that will never have an answer to some of my questions.

A few weeks ago a certain situation arose and truth be told...it hurt. Then again, truth always does! It is unavoidable at times and sometimes it is needed.

What more can one do when situations like that happens? Just move on right? Even though the end result is confusing?

One of my many flaws (is that the right word? haha) was pointed out to me and it came in two different scenarios. Outcome for both - change.

Relationships changed and I am no longer trusted. Trust has been lost - how do I feel about that? I was sad. Do I feel bad? Yes, of course! I did not mean to open my mouth, sometimes I just talk without thinking and it bit me in the booo-tay. Is it the end of the world if a couple of people out of a world of people do not trust me? No, it is not the end. It just means some people do not trust me. Will I get their trust back? Probably not.

I have come to realize that situations like this was a first for me. It was overwhelming especially with these preggie hormones on high, but with the support of my darling husband I was able to put a handle on it hahaha. Kind of. It took me a while to figure things out - lay low and just keep to myself or tackle the situation head on - it was hard for me to figure out what to do.

I was told to "grow up", but it is funny - when do we ever grow up? People use that phrase loosely. Some do not understand that people have to find out what works for them in handling life's many challenges/obstacles. What works for one, may not work for another. I believed it was best to just keep to myself, that is what would have worked for me. Then I was told that I was "running away" from my problems if I kept to myself because no one is pushing me away, but to me it was not running away. I did not see it that way. Not everyone is the same.

I am still growing up! Every day we get older and every day we learn something new about ourselves and about the world that surrounds us.

I have finally learned when it comes to life's lemons, you just pick it up and make more than lemonade (lemon pound cake sounds yummy right now mmmm).

I am sinner just like every one else, I will make more mistakes in my lifetime and all I can do is learn from them and hopefully to never make the same mistake twice, thrice, etc (LOL!). That is what makes us human. Live and learn!

A friend wrote me and I mentally kept note of it -

"it's not the mistakes that define you, it's how you grow from your mistakes that mold you."

End result - surround myself with positivity, take the negative and turn it into something positive. What is the positive outcome here? I have learned to change for the good, grow from my mistakes and keep on living.

xoxo